I have been swimming after I drop the girls off at school a couple times a week. The pool was especially dirty the last time I was there. I was doing laps, back and forth, and I couldn't get my mind to just relax because I was passing a band-aid and some dead bugs every 15 meters. As I was getting out of the pool another woman was approaching. I mentioned to her that my lane was kind of buggy. She just kind of laughed and said she "had been in much worse".
That made me think all day. I like swimming in the morning. I kinda suck at it and have very little perservance. I do about 20 minutes and then my I can't find the gumption to go any more. Would I swim in "much worse"? Probably not.
It has been about 90 degrees by 7:50 when I start swimming. When it get to 80 will I keep going? Probably not.
Every morning there is always a lane open for me to use. If there was no lane available would I wait? Probably not.
So I have been asking myself, what would I do no matter what? If it is too buggy, or cold, or just not the right exact perfect way? What would I still do? And what is it in people that keep them moving forward on something? Never giving up even if it means knowing it could be "much worse".
I want to build my tolerance and stop being such a baby. My life is easy and lovely. I want to believe that if it was "much worse" I would still be getting in the water.